"what is the meaning of life?" you look at me
--forlornly.
you're so cool, but you know it's cringe
i mean, in this day and age??
whoa you're soooooooooooo lovely
you sat on my bus first
--i didnt have no clue who you were
say, i avoided you
but i managed to suck at physics too
bro
so every lunch we'd sit together
--WHY WOULD YOU DO THIS FOR ME?!??!
i tried to pay you, but
you said it was ok (i was poor)
TLDR; you know how the story goes
ok maybe you dont know
--i cant assume lol
so i kinda
kinda fell for you
(...)
ish, you know
--(kinda)
it wasn't even that deep bro
i swear, kinda
i was in love (just a lil)
hey so there's this one time
--in the morning
i woke up early and made a hundred twenty-four postitnotes
each saying the same thing
...but kinda different you know
thats how i told you that
--you know,
i loved you (ahh)
in the good old bus
n u looked at me incredulously
not today you said
--not now
i was fine
actually i was elated
i did it, i told him, that's all that mattered!
fast forward two years
--you're gone,
i'm still here
and i still sit in the same spot in the library
sometimes
i remember your face
--your smile
and i midday dream about
how i would grow up to take care of you
and be someone you would love too!!
but im still here
--on instagram, nonetheless
bro jp is kissing his gf
'n im telling myself waitwaitwaitwait
but every night i'm up thinking
what if
--whatifwhatifwhatif
what if i am not good enough (for you)
what if i finally
finally have come to my senses
no i say
--i can't think that.
i need to work hard
(blushes)
for you, for me, for us
but what if i cant
--what if it doesn't work out
what if you like skinnier girls
what if you like older girls
what if you like someone else (brooo im such a teenager)
I
--in all my highschoolness
will work hard to be someone
you could love
'n you could count on
(extra line) because you make me so
(extra line) soooooo so happy
:)
